Author: diana Stone

Ecclesiastes 2:14

I have seen everything that is done under the sun;and behold, all is vanity and a striving after wind.

2:17

And I applied my mind to wisdom and to know madness and folly, and I perceived that this also is but a striving after wind.
For in wisdom there is much vexation, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow.

2:15

Then I said to myself “what befalls the fool will befall me also; why for most  I been so very wise?”. And I said to myself this also is vanity.  For of the wise man as of the fool there is no enduring remembrance, seeing the days to come all will have been long forgotten. How the wise man dies just like the fool! So I hated life, because what is done under the sun is grievous to me; for all is vanity and a striving after wind.

Am I mearly a fly in the ointment of existence? I have had a couple of recent knock backs that have rocked me a bit.That plus a dose of flu and and a new level of insight have left me wondering what the best course of action is? I have been looking at jobs outside the music arena and I have applied for around 30 in about 2 weeks. So far out of 30 the score is 1 interview, I canceled interview and 2 no thank you very much. I understand that at present it takes about 200 applications to get a job, so I guess I need to pull my finger out a bit really. I like to cling to the possibly misguided notion that I do have some saleable skills but of course these may simply be delusional episodes.

Well fans (ironic) it could be going a little better right now I have to admit, but you can’t blame me for trying. I was on the radio in St Albans with the 3 5ths of Elephant Shelf and we managed to get 3 tracks played from the album which can’t be bad, and that was fun. We also got 3 plugs for our gig on Saturday at the Mermaid too. There is a guy that wants to represent the Shelf in Holland which might be useful and lots of radio stations playing the album out Sur la Manch so that’s got to be good.
Personal circumstances are looking very risky now though. I have applied for about 30 jobs and not a sniff so far so one is getting in to a bit of a panic and its grinding me down just a tad.   I have seriously considered bankruptcy but that could be a bit difficult under the circumstances, but it might come to that. Its not quite where I though I would be when I left the Civil Service  about 2 years ago.
My brilliant career has not quite materialized. Something has to happen soon.